Did I Go Where You Wanted Me to Go?

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April 25, 2017 by genelup

When I was a teenager, at summer camp, I remember standing and singing a song in chapel about going where you Lord wanted me to go. I really meant it, and I had a girlfriend, and in the back of our minds we thought we might serve the Lord together.

It didn’t work out that way. The romance only lasted a couple months and then faded away forever. This song still haunts me:

It may not be on the mountain’s height,
Or over the stormy sea;
It may not be at the battle’s front,
My Lord will have need of me;
But if by a still, small voice He calls,
To paths that I do not know,
I’ll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in Yours,
I’ll go where You want me to go.”

A few years later while in the army, I turned my back on you, dear Lord. “Go where you wanted me to go” was the farthest thing from my mind. I went where I wanted to go, to places where I shouldn’t have been, and to drink heavily that messed up my mind.
“I’ll go where You want me to go, dear Lord,
O’er mountain, or plain, or sea;
I’ll say what You want me to say, dear Lord,
I’ll be what You want me to be.”

I didn’t say what you wanted me to say, dear Lord. I thought I was an agnostic; oh, you were up there on high but didn’t care about us on earth, and especially about me. I ruled my own life. There wasn’t room in it for you. But you didn’t give up on me, dear Lord.

Then one Sunday morning I woke up. My life had crashed. Lower than a snake’s belly to use an old cliché. I had memories of you, dear Lord, when I wanted to follow you, when I was willing to go where you wanted me to go. I got down on my knees….You gave me a second chance, dear Lord.
“Perhaps today there are loving words
Which
 Jesus would have me speak;
There may be now in the paths of sin,
Some wand’rer whom I should seek;
O Savior, if You will be my guide,
Though dark and rugged the way,
My voice shall echo Your message sweet,
I’ll say what You want me to say.

When I was on my knees and looked into your face, dear Lord…well that was nearly 50 years ago. I didn’t become a missionary that I thought and sung about when I was a teenager, but maybe you guided my path to be a husband, father, grandfather and a friend. Did I go where you wanted me to go, dear Lord? Did I do what you wanted me to do?

“So trusting my all to Your tender care,
And knowing You lovest me,
I’ll do Your will with a heart sincere,
I’ll be what You want me to be.”

SECONDS

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